•June 27, 2019 • 1 Comment

And Jesus said (to the would-be disciple), ‘Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head…Follow me.’

WHERE DID THE IDEA come from that being a woman or man of faith might be justly rewarded with a life of peace and privilege? To be true, such is indeed the case, but not in the ways ‘the world’ seems to expect. The Peace and Privilege are realised not in the material comforts of our lives but in its thin places; we find out who really are in the wilderness moments of our lives.

Peace breaks out from deep within us, like a fountain of living water; Privilege is in the finding that our suffering has broken us enough that the Eternal Fountain can rise in us through the cracks in our own deluded self-imagining.

How many times have you listened to self-professed ‘atheists’ moaning about the random unfairness of life that negates for them any notion of a loving God? It isn’t surprising though. The blandness of post Enlightenment perceived reality, and of course most of the ‘education’ and associated brainwashing it has spawned, informs and sustains facile moralistic patterns which are in turn superimposed onto images that pass in people’s minds for what God ought to be like. In regard to such patterns and images, I could quite rightly pass for an atheist too!

Love has no place to lay her head in the joined-up thinking of moralistic materialism. Love is indiscriminate and she is beckoning to us all, every creature, plant and element, in every moment. Listen to the birds and the creatures, wildflowers and reeds of the marsh, as they praise God’s love with their song. Let the beauty break you down, until the Christ moves freely through you, flowing like living water out of you and into ‘the world’.


I Am With You Always

•January 17, 2019 • 2 Comments

a poem. click below to listen

Are You Looking at me?

•December 11, 2018 • 1 Comment



“And you, child, will be called the prophet of the Most High; for you will go before the Lord to prepare his ways, to give knowledge of salvation to his people
by the forgiveness of their sins” (Luke 1.76, 77)

“WHO? Me? Are you looking at me? Well I don’t see anyone else, I’m the only one here. Are you looking at me?”

“Yes, child, I am looking at you. You are the Prophet of the Most High. Now go and prepare the way for your Christ. Give the people the good news of their freedom. Go and set my people free. Tell them plainly. Make the path straight for them. Set my people free!”

“But they won’t listen to me. Hardly anybody goes to church now. I’m too old. I’m too young. I don’t know what to say. I’m not a theologian. I haven’t got any charisma. Even my children don’t want to come with me to church. Are you sure you’re looking at me?”

“Stop stressing. Look at me. No, not at my feet. Look me in the eyes. I have already set you free. Free to worship without fear. I have rescued you from your enemies. Your enemies are no one but your own fear. Don’t be frightened. There is nothing to be afraid of. I have called you and you are mine. I will never leave you. You don’t need to run or hide or think up new ways to do God’s work, say God’s words. I am right here. Within you. I have already moved all your obstacles. You just think they are still there. The traps and knots of your mind are just illusions. Their only power is the power you give them. All you have to do to end that power is let them go. There is nothing and no one to blame or to twist your emotions around, tie your thoughts to. I have set you free from your schemes and stories that can never be. Let them go. Look at me. Here I am. You are free to serve, free to love, free to risk, free to bring the light to those whose lives seem dark. Look at me. I am in them too! Just believe what you see here and then go and tell them what you see in them, and they will see me…go now, Prophet of the Most High…
…Prepare ye the Way of the Lord.”


•December 1, 2018 • Leave a Comment
stay awake

“Be alert at all times…stand before the Son of Man”. (Luke 21.36)

SIGNS IN THE SUN, moon and stars, trouble among nations, rising sea levels, storms and wars… Our apocalyptic introduction to the gospel for a new Christian Year is physically and politically timely! Global warming, would-be empire proxy-warfare, melting ice caps, petrol/plastic poisoned planet, Brexit and Donald Trump vs Vlad Putin (or any available posturing tyrant with a Twitter account) could so easily be written into a footnote to the passage we’re reading from St Luke’s gospel this first Sunday of Advent.
So is this it then? End of Days? Second Coming of Christ? Could this really be the time? Apocalypse finally now?
Yes of course it could! No, of course it isn’t! Yes. No. I don’t know. Who knows? It seems pretty much every generation spawns those, sometimes many, who think they are living in the Last Days.
Perhaps it is a facet of human personality to think that of course it’s all going to end in ‘my’ life time. After all, ‘I’ am the one who is trying to make sense of all this, looking out at time and space through these eyes, in this head, with this brain…well you know what I’m saying. It’s ego thinking. Ego is driven by the instinct to survive. Ego is helpful to us in life threatening situations, fight or flight, ‘should I stay or should I go now’ moments. But ego ceases to be helpful when its survival at all costs mentality takes control of our whole thinking, feeling consciousness. When we believe we actually are our brain, body or ego, then we lose sight of our true being, our eternal existence in the true Oneness of being that we name God. This is how we let the ‘storms’ and ‘wild seas’ that Jesus spoke about overwhelm us.
But the Word of God (Christ, Christ’s self, according to the Prologue in John’s gospel) is within each one of us, to be found in the centre of our being, dug in like treasure in a field of grace by God. Advent is a time to reconnect with the treasure, the kingdom of God in us, with the Christ who comes like a baby, saying, “Wait, be still, see, HERE I AM.”


•November 17, 2018 • Leave a Comment
pob clense

“…grant that we, having this hope (faith/eternal Life in Christ)
may purify ourselves even as he is pure” (today’s Collect)
‘Do you see these great buildings? Not one stone will be left here upon another; all will be thrown down’ (Mark 13.2)

WHEN JESUS pointed to the finely built walls of the Jerusalem Temple and told his followers that it would all fall down, he may have been speaking literally, in prophecy, about the destruction that would happen there some 40 years later when the might of Rome would crush their nation’s rebellions, striking at the heart of Judaic consciousness, obliterating their religious place along with their ‘holy’ city. Many scholars and religious people have argued the case for this. No doubt there is truth in this and Jesus foresaw the physicality of it. Mark’s gospel moves quickly on from this moment, as Mark’s gospel always does. However, when John’s gospel reports this saying, the narrative doesn’t jump quite so quickly. John adds, “But when Jesus said ‘this temple,’ he meant his own body”.
The writer of John’s gospel wrote decades later than Mark (probably, incidentally, after the literal destruction of the Temple). John’s gospel is theologically much more advanced. It was written after many years of contemplation, prayer and reflection on the life and ministry of Jesus by someone who traveled with him, slept rough with him, lived hand to mouth with him, ministered with him and sat as a student daily at his feet. John’s is a mystical gospel, with a spirituality more east than west. John’s gospel understands Jesus not as a moralistic indoctrinator of Greek influenced philosophic but as a wisdom master, more Tao Te Ching than Athenian Academy.
John reads Jesus’ actions and teachings as “signs” or teachings about the nature of the kingdom of heaven, which , as Jesus taught all who had “ears” and “eyes”, is among us, within us, now, always. They are signs about our own eternal nature, unseparated from the Oneness that is Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Christ is Son but he came to teach us that we are all Son/Daughter/Child of the Oneness. Mark gives us the action, John gives us the meaning. Contemplating all this opens us, as it did St John, to the purification of our souls we have asked for in our Collect this Sunday. We don’t do the purifying, God does it. But we have to provide the intention. Be still. Know God.


•November 5, 2018 • 1 Comment
Vitruvian Man

“Almighty and eternal God, you have kindled the flame of love
in the hearts of the saints: grant to us the same faith and power of love…” (today’s Collect)
“One of the scribes came near and heard them disputing with one another, and seeing that he answered them well, he asked him, ‘Which commandment is the first of all?’ (Mark 12.28)

THE SCHOLAR approaches Jesus in this morning’s Gospel reading with a testing question about the Torrah. It is a test of orthodoxy perhaps and is legalistic with moralistic undertones. Religion to this day is often seen in such a way, like a scaffold of ‘correct’ beliefs and rules designed to help ‘believers’ join the dots to salvation and so be worthy to enter some variously prescribed version of after-life eternal bliss. For Christians, largely because of words often found in the gospels on the lips of Jesus, this is often thought about in terms of kingdom of God, kingdom of heaven or just heaven. Due to political dominance through the ages of empire versions of Christianity, earthly kingdom type imagery has often been efficacious, leaving many generations spiritually groaning under the weight of impossible morality. Of course, this is not surprising; people whose default setting is an inherent sense of failure to live up to pre-programmed ideals, are susceptible to authoritarian control.
But Jesus says the scholar is not far from the kingdom of God. This law-scribe has shown Jesus that actually he can perceive the love of God beneath his own religious and social programming. For Jesus, this kingdom has nothing to do with earthly kings or political leaders. Malkuthach, central to Jesus’ message and normally translated “kingdom,” is really about what guides us in our souls; it is that which empowers us to go forward in the face of all difficulties, a creative potential aching to be realised. Malkuthach is linked in Aramaic to shamayin – heavens – less a place than a movement of being, like “light and sound shining through all creation” (Dr Neil Douglas-Klotz).
Jesus was never a teacher of morality but rather he opened the consciousness of whoever had ears to listen, so that they might see God within themselves, timeless, eternal, and so be able to enter in this life the kingdom state, consciousness or guiding principle of God. In doing this a person becomes ripe to inherit oneness, completeness in the ‘world to come’.


•October 27, 2018 • Leave a Comment


BY THE FINAL SCENE in the Book of Job, the title character has been stripped to the core. Everything he thought he knew about life and God, religion and morality, righteousness and just rewards, politics and philosophy, has been ripped away from him, along with his family, his wealth, social standing and everything else. Finally he is able to come to God and simply let God be God. Similarly the blind beggar in Mark’s gospel came to Jesus in the street, simply knowing God being God in Christ and asking Christ to open his eyes. All is restored and more to Job and to the blind beggar the moment they let go all sense of self-righteousness and instead trust completely in God. This is the meaning too of the psalm, where the ‘poor soul’ of the singer-poet cries from the depth of her/his being and is heard.
There is much to interest us and teach us in reading the Bible. But to keep it only on the level of mind and intellect would be tragic, stifling to our life’s walk with God. No doubt, this Bible Sunday there will be enough debate in churches and outside them about Scripture and which translations are best and what we can learn about being a Christian, living a ‘good life’ etc. Fine. But if it ends there, then it won’t bring anyone any closer to the living God. You have heard the Bible described as the ‘living word’ and for sure it has the power to give us life. So let’s make an intention from today, if it’s not already done, to read a little every day, not just with the brain and its questions but with our ‘poor souls’. Read a few sentences, not too much, 3 or 4 times, slowly, letting go the need to know, just asking God to open the eyes of our souls.

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