God is God

 When John heard in prison what the Messiah was doing, he sent word by his disciples and said to him, ‘Are you the one who is to come, or are we to wait for another?’ — Matthew 11.2

HAVE I BEEN WASTING my time all these years? Has my entire ministry been a lie? I came to the wilderness when I was but a child. I studied with the monks, slept among the lizards and the desert rats. I came to the holy river, on the freedom side, and prepared the way in the hearts of the many. “Repent”, I screamed and I ducked them into the abyss in your holy name. Brought each one up into the light, ready and willing, finally, to meet God! Turned them upside down and inside out so they may face the Lord, whom I was so sure was coming to gather the lost tribes home. And what?

Can you, cousin, really be the one? Where is your winnowing fork? Where is your axe to cut down the mighty oppressor and set your people free? Free! I am rotting here in this cell. My fate is in the hands of a mad and drunken joke-king, whose slapper of a wife would love nothing more than to have my head slapped up on a plate for her party tea. Are you coming to bust me out? Is a little messianic jailbreak too much to expect from God’s Lonely Man?

But you talk of another way. Tell the people to look inside themselves and find the kingdom already there. You don’t seem to notice the difference between Roman and Jew, sinner or saint. God’s love is for everyone, you say. And I thought…I thought…I thought…I…knew…you… I thought you were what I wanted you to be, what I dreamed you must be. You are not that, are you?

I know. I understand. Look inside.

God is God. We might shape idols with our chiselling minds but we can’t delineate God. You bring forth me, not I you. Your servant bows before you. Meshiach. Praise the Lord!


“The Lord will reign for ever…sadness and sorrow shall be no more… Praise the LORD!”tropicalnorthqueensland_indigenous_didgeridoo

~ by Fr Tim Ardouin on December 10, 2016.

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