Well do you?
When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had been there a long time, he said to him, ‘Do you want to be made well?’
(John 5.6)
WELL do you?
Filled by cosmic energy, blocked by reality
Are you ready to give up expecting others to carry you to the water or blaming them if they don’t? Are you ready to give up your religious nostalgia about Jesus, man of history, and trust the call of the Cosmic Christ, who always was and is and who forever will be?
There is security to be found in being helpless, in expecting the worst, stay embedded in the drama of disastrous circumstance. Are you ready to forego the attention of the concerned, let go the known state, the accepted map of self-prescribed limitation?
Well are you? Do you really want to be made well? Because you know, don’t you, that if you take up that mat and walk, there will be consequences. Someone’s going to point out to you that it’s not legal to walk alone, or to be strong or to think for yourself. You can be sure of that. It’s far safer to stay on your back than to be pulling down any temple. And those new legs you walk on, you’ll have to get used to them too.
Oh and then there’s the voice. Not that loud, shouty one that commentates on everything you see or keeps insisting that you’re better or worse than him or her, or who blames God or fate or that woman or those people for all the mishaps and sadnesses in your world or in that one out there. No, I’m talking about the small voice, the gentle one, that seems to live in your heart, the one the shouty voice tries so hard to make you ignore. Oh friend, it is dangerous to listen to the quiet voice. There is no end to the adventures she will cause you to travel. This is the voice of Wisdom, the Christ voice, the timeless, universal One. You will learn from this One that you are not alone, not separated, not delineated but free and one with One and All.
Do you really want to be made well? Well do you?
What you are basically, deep, deep down, far, far in, is simply the fabric and structure of existence itself… Each one of us, not only human beings but every leaf, every weed, exists in the way it does, only because everything else around it does. The individual and the universe are inseparable. (Alan Watts – philosopher)
Tonnau Duw ('God's waves') Fr Tim Ardouin 
Lovely…thank you Father Tim for sharing these important words. God bless.
Thank you Pam. I hope all is well with you and all blessings to Peacemala. Tangnefedd