Look child. Gaze on the light. You are frightened now. He has just told you it can’t be the way you want, not how you think it is supposed to be. He has told you that he will be crucified. He even knows what you’re gonna do. Deny him. Run for your life. Leave him to the wolves and the jackals on the darkest night. Knowing he’s hanging there. Dying slowly. Screaming out the pain of all humanity, ‘Why! Oh my God, why have you forsaken me! Why have you left me here bleeding in the rain and the hailing wind?’

You’ve been with him some time now. But the more you get close to knowing him, the crazier he seems. The more dangerous it seems to get. Look child. Though you are scared and hope-dashed, dream- smashed into hiding inside your sleep,

Gaze into the light.

Look at him now. All of scripture surrounds him. The whole universe emanates from him. His face shines with the radiance of the Uncreated. He is Love. The Way of the Cross is Love amidst the fear,

No darkness can dis-appear it, no death can conquer it.

The Way of the Cross confronts all wrongdoing, all injustice, all terror. No evil can fester in its light.

Child you are afraid. You’ve guessed deep inside, though you deny it to your self-taught thought, that you will have to suffer too. But know this. In suffering there is beauty. Though you must struggle sometimes, maybe many times, until you too must taste death,

Through death you will explode in God-light, radiant and bright, bright white.

I am showing you all this now though you can’t understand yet. One day you will. When you have seen Resurrection, in him, in you, in all things, in all place, in all time…

…And you, ‘there on the sad height,

Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray. Do not go gentle into that good night.

Rage, rage against the dying of the light.’

Look child. Look at the light. She cannot die. Her resurrection is already won.


into the light.

~ by Fr Tim Ardouin on February 28, 2014.

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